2009

Monday 05th January, 2009

And so, here we are - 2009. When I look back at the last year and how horrid it was, I suppose the only way now is forward! In my little ironical world, I am looking for something like a huge anvil to hit me on the head while I’m out walking the dog. I am missing Peter like crazy, but trying to hide it from family and friends because I don’t want them to get fed up with me and my mourning. So I mourn in private, alone, or with Dylan my best dog. Dylan lets me moan on to him and always offers a furry shoulder to cry on, and he never passes on advice or judgement! I love my dog so much.

So what now…I was waiting for some kind of epiphany over Christmas, not a Christmas one…a personal one! It never came. I still don’t know what to do with myself. I am out of ideas. Maybe the time is not right yet, and maybe the best thing to do is to build up some kind of routine at the cottage, plan the garden, and get myself sorted! Answers on a postcard please!

The cottage is coming along nicely, there is still a lot to do but it’s all cosmetic and seeing as I’ve the rest of my life to sort it out, I’m going to try and just enjoy living here. I have not allowed myself to enjoy things yet…I call it the ‘anvil syndrome’! The garden is being landscaped and I have a wonderful pair of builders who have done a fantastic job for me.

Dylan and Archie have settled in quite nicely and although Archie does not like to go out for a walk on his lead, he enjoys it when he eventually gets out of the house! He has turned into such a lap dog! Dylan absolutely loves his new home, so that is positive. We are starting training classes as soon as possible as I want to finish Dylan’s Kennel Club Good Citizen Awards, Bronze, Silver and Gold.

I did have some good news before Christmas. A friend I met on the Internet, Debbie Brewer, has been having pioneering treatment in Germany. It is called Chemoemobilization. The good news is that Debbie’s tumor has shrunk and is now classed as being in partial remission. This is such good news for cancer sufferers everywhere, and I now hope this treatment is going to be offered to others, as you can only receive it privately at present.

Happy New Year 2009

Thursday 01st January, 2009

Happy New Year to all my family, friends both old and new. I wish you all a peaceful and healthy new year.

I was going to write something in my blog but have found it very hard to put any words down, so I just wish you all the best for 2009. xxx