Birthday!

Wednesday 10th September, 2008

I have just had a lovely birthday, made special by my children, family and friends! It was my first birthday without Peter, and I felt so lost without him. He always spoilt me on my birthday and made me feel so special. I miss him, his companionship and his thoroughly awful jokes! It is amazing how time has trundled on in it’s own interminable way.

Time is not a healer - you just get used a situation. I am realising that Peter is not away on business, or out fishing, or even upstairs asleep. He is not coming back to me, and although it has only been five months since he had to go away, I now know that he is not coming back in the physical sense. I pray every day that he is with me spiritually, willing me to carry on, sending me ideas, and generally keeping an eye on me. I am sure he is instrumental in finding me somewhere to live for the rest of my days - I will write about my new venture later as I cannot believe what I have done and want to sit and ponder awhile before I write about it!

So, back to the birthday. We had a lovely meal at a pub. We all decided to have steak - cooked on volcanic rock at your table - fantastic fun (… dearest daughter next time DO NOT attempt to put your finger on the rock!). I had lovely presents. I had some money donated to The June Hancock Mesothelioma Trust instead of a birthday present so I was extremely chuffed about that as it is for such a good cause and every penny counts. Thank you everybody who made my birthday a good ‘un!