Blogging when I should be packing!

Thursday 31st July, 2008

Here I am, on the computer when I should be packing. In fact, I have a house to pack, as well as a suitcase! The washing is not done, but hey ho, there is always the tumble drier!

I am going to have a little rant at idiot drivers. I do not class myself as an idiot driver as I try and be careful and considerate to other drivers, especially when driving a 20ft motorhome. Also, I have my insurance premium to think about, and I don’t want a speeding ticket. Driving a vehicle that is larger than your average family saloon has taught me some valuable etiquette on the roads, sadly lacking in a lot of drivers I come across.

I am fed up with arrogant, aggressive drivers, who drive as if they are playing on a games console. I know some of these drivers often sadly get a wake up call in the way of a bad accident, but I wonder if they ever consider the damage they wreak not only to themselves, but to other innocent families?

On the A38 last night, it was full of idiots. I was driving my Ford Zetec 1.8 TDci. It was not as if I was being a “Sunday driver”. The idiots seemed to think that driving at 80-90 miles per hour is the norm, getting so close up my back end that I could almost feel them breathing down my neck. I was driving at 70mph - the speed limit on that particular road. Also, there are unmarked police cars down that stretch and I certainly did not want to get pulled.

The other day, I was so damn angry, when a bald driver in Repton made me pull over and promptly gave me a one fingered salute just because I let him overtake me! That was gratitude for you! I would add that I had reached speeds of 60mph on poor country lanes - so he can hardly accuse me of going too slow! Bald Chav! At least I can lose weight if I choose to - he cannot grow his hair back! Insults to him because he gave me the one fingered salute!

So why is it that these people are so inconsiderate - tantamount to bullying? Are they naturally aggressive, or is it because they’ve had a crap day at work and are passive aggressive, so take it out on poor non offensive, considerate drivers - like me?

I may have a sign made to display in my back window “If you can read this you are TOO FUCKING CLOSE” or “Gerrorf my back end, we haven’t been introduced…” or “Slow down you stupid twat” or “What the fuck do you think you’re doing getting so close you can read this sign?” or something like that! Answers on a post card.

Rant over!

Still Busy Busy Busy…

Tuesday 29th July, 2008

OK, this is why…I have decided to buy a new house! Yes, a new beginning. I shall be taking my beloved Peter to a new, peaceful, retreat. The children have decided to fly the nest and so it’s time for new beginnings. It all happened in a rush and to be quite honest I was not looking to move, but one surf on the Internet led to another, and I found a house that I could see myself living in for the rest of my days - something that has not happened to me before. I am sure Peter is orchestrating events so Peter, thank you my darling, you have made the perfect choice! X X X

Busy, busy, busy!

Saturday 19th July, 2008

I have been busy these past few weeks, and have not really made time to blog.

First of all I went to see my Aunt, she lives by the sea in Mid-Wales, and we all had a smashing time. It was so good to see her again and Archie was completely at home on his old stomping ground!

I have found a nice cottage near the Peak District, and have made an offer subject to survey. Peter would have loved the cottage and I am so sorry and upset that he is not here to share it with me.

I have seen my new baby nephew - he is adorable - just like his brother!

I’ve been on holiday to Norfolk which was very relaxing and full of fun!

Dylan loved being beside the seaside, and at every opportunity he ran off to jump in the sea and get covered in sand! Archie was not too fussed about getting wet, but loved to run like a mad thing on the beach - getting covered in sand in the process! The dogs are so tired at the moment!

Positive and Negative

Thursday 03rd July, 2008

Hello…back again…I’ve been away from the computer for a while and I’m going to blame Big Brother, but I’m back now! I’ve been to Whitby for a few days with friends - it was brilliant, but their tent got wrecked in the high winds. However, apart from the weather I had a lovely time and Dylan quite enjoyed himself as well. I’ve got some pictures on my camera and will upload them soon.

In a nutshell: still depressed…which I am thoroughly fed up with, the dogs are well and behaving nicely, my house is a bomb-site, my garden is messy, I moan too much!

<phone rings as I’m typing>

Oh! STOP PRESS! I have another nephew born TODAY! The day before Peter’s birthday! Welcome to my little nephew!

Bed

Friday 30th May, 2008

I went to bed for the first time since my husband died. It was weird. I awoke very late, disorientated and wondering where I was. But honestly, I feel better for going to bed. Simple sleep. So, I am going to formulate a plan. Bed by 10.00 pm, mug of Horlicks, and maybe a book. It’s about time I got my act together. Having said that, part of depression is making these plans - but it’s putting them into practice that is the problem. Like now for instance. I am supposed to be doing the housework, and boy does it need doing! However, procrastination (?grammar)  has set in and I am on the settee with the dogs cuddled up to me, writing on my blog! Does anyone have the phone number for Kim and Aggie?

The weather has been so horrid, it was so windy on Monday that my garden ended up in next door’s garden! I hope the summer comes back soon as it is so cold. Since Archie has been clipped he keeps shivering and he has had to have his little coat on again. Crazy weather.

Anyhoo you crazy people…I’m going to attempt to do some washing and drying because I’ve run out of clothes!

Dylan

Thursday 29th May, 2008

My brilliant Labrador! I am going to boast how wonderful he is! He passes me the remote control, and if the telephone is ringing he brings it to one of us to answer. He loves fetching the post in from the front door, and will fetch the newspaper too! If I ask him to “fetch shoe” he will bring me shoes - not necessarily a matching pair but I don’t think he cares which shoes you want as his dress sense is not very vogue - you just get shoes, matching or not! Also, he will take your socks off when asked, he doesn’t mind if you have stinky feet - the smellier the better as far as he is concerned. He will bring items upstairs, or downstairs if you ask him to! Maybe I should re-name him Jeeves! Dylan is brilliant! I love you so much Dyl! xxx

Thank You!

Thursday 29th May, 2008

A huge thank you to the lovely people who have donated to our Just Giving Appeal for the June Hancock Mesothelioma Research Fund, in memory of Peter. I am so chuffed! I just checked the page because I had another E-mail, and so THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

Fuel Prices

Thursday 29th May, 2008

I’m sick to death of this country. Honestly, it has had it as far as I am concerned. This Government has turned our country into such a Nanny State. Now we have another fuel crisis looming.

I am not a political person, and not really interested in what goes off down in the Big Smoke - typical of the voting apathy that goes off in our country and something I am going to have to change. However, they are rapidly pissing me off down in the Houses of Parliament. Road tax is going up for bigger cars - which put the dampers on me having the vehicle I really wanted because I couldn’t stand/afford to pay road tax at the extortionate prices that are coming in.

My new car is not really what I wanted, but I compromised with myself because of the road tax and running costs. I got a diesel car because diesel used to be cheaper. Now I find it is costing me more to run than my old petrol 1.8L saloon car. I should have kept that!

Whatever luxury I try and have those robbing thieves down in London take it off me. I have always paid taxes, and my job was never well paid for the work I had to do. My wages had to be budgeted to allow for expenses on my car and I had to pay for car parking. I could not get a bus, as there are no buses in our village - one comes through every month or so, and that is usually late! It is too far to go on a bike - also, I would fear for my life on a bike on the dual carriageway and roadways to work.

I would not want to live where I worked as it totally depressing, and unsafe so that was definitely not an option. And so I feel penalised for living in a small village not a million miles away from a city, and for having the luxury of a car.

We pay enough road tax without having to have extra tax on the fuel. Road tax is a joke - you should see the roads around here…an absolute joke. One of our roads has been closed for months, I have to go on a two mile detour to get to the doctors in the next village. It’s been a farce - it costs me more in diesel just to go down the road because of the two mile detour.

And so to the point of this post? Sign e-petitions if you can be bothered. That is what it boils down to in this country - apathy. Don’t let this slide, sign the petitions and be heard. One person shouting the odds can’t be heard very loud, but hundreds of people shouting can make a lot of noise…please speak up to lower fuel prices. It is ridiculous what we have to pay in our country. Absolutely ridiculous.

I urge you all to go and sign the e-petition listed HERE to try to get fuel prices lowered.

I apologise for the awful grammar in this post, I’m rather depressed today, and tired - although I’ve slept, it has not been a natural sleep. I like sleep, but at the moment I have such a lot buzzing around my frazzled brain I am finding it hard to concentrate. I am sick of this depression, and have been to the doctor who suggested counselling. I have to pay however, as the NHS counselling would take too long to come through, and so it was suggested that I pay. Typical. I telephoned the counselling service, but nobody was there to take my call - I got an answer machine. I left a message, but nobody has come back to me. I am too apathetic to ring again! I telephoned another counselling service, and again I got a recorded message. This was before the bank holiday. Stuff it, I shall just have a moan on here - after all it’s my website! LOL!

Night all, hope you who read this sleeps well! Rant over!

Flickr Account

Saturday 24th May, 2008

Waaah! I have used up all my space on my Flickr account…the question is do I pay to upgrade? Hmmm…I will get back on this one! Carly has a new camera, Nikon 60DX - I am green with envy! I use Cannon, and have an EOS350D. I would like the Cannon EOS450D, but cannot justify spending the money!

I have just had to buy a newish car as Peter’s company car had to be returned to the leasing pool. Peter’s company were brilliant though and let us have the use of it while he was off ill. Like I said in previous blogs, I cannot thank his company enough for everything they did for us.

Anyhooooo! Upgrade/not upgrade - that is the question?! Flickr account AND camera! LOL!

Take care you crazy guys. I’m off out to take photos while the sun is shining!

Mesothelioma and Me

Friday 23rd May, 2008

I have just found this lovely website/blog written by a lady called Debbie who is a mesothelioma sufferer. Debbie has been featured in the media and is trying different approaches with her treatments concerning mesothelioma. I have found Debbie’s site to be very informative and only wish I had not buried my head in the sand concerning the Internet when Peter was diagnosed. I used the Internet to research stuff about mesothelioma, but only found stuff that literally scared the pants off us. I think we both were in denial and I have not heard about half the things Debbie has found out. Also, we did not read anything in the media or watch TV programmes, again probably due to our denial. Anyway, I am linking my website to Debbie’s and you can click on the link in Meso Resources or HERE!

Best Wishes are sent to Debbie and her family, and please feel free to visit here and post your comments whenever you like!